Saturday, January 24, 2015


It's very known that if someone talks about something, especially if it's something good, they might "jinx it".

I recently, during the past few months, I started comparing some of the things that I talk about and the things I don't talk about... You can all guess which 'stuff' stayed the same and turned better.

I know it's not in my nature to brag about anything, I just love sharing things, I guess that's how I have conversations with people, we talk about what we're working on, future plans, personal relationships... Etc.

So, I've decided that I will really have to limit myself from sharing everything, not just to "not jinx it" but also because not everything is anyone's business, even close people... Do you think it's a good idea? Would it be fair to my friends?


Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Boys Will Be Girls...

...and girls will be boys! 

I consider myself an open minded person when it comes to sexualities and whatever comes with them. One thing that bugs me though about it is when people use it as a mean of publicity or fame. If you're gay or flamboyant, honey, that's for you. You do not need to share that and imply it with everything you do in your life.

I've seen a lot of people that wear rainbows lately, post rainbow emojis on social media profiles... I mean, why does it have to be a gay parade every single day? I'm not a homophobic person at all, but to me it's the same thing as those women that talk about feminism 24/7. I'm bad at giving examples, but that was the first thing I thought of.

I always go back to that saying I always mention to people:
"There's a gay doctor, and there's a doctor who happens to be gay."
Know the difference!

I hope I do not offend anyone when I say this, but the reason that I think the way I think about this is that feminine guys are feminine to attract guys, it's like their "I'm available" card, and I'm sorry I'm not sorry, but I see that as a sign of desperation.

The question is; how feminine is too feminine? On a scale from 1 to 10 let's say... Which is the acceptable number to you?

The whole thing also applies to girls, nothing freaks me out more than manly tomboyish girls. lol

So, the same question can be asked about girls; how masculine can a girl be and still pass my non-freaky feeling?

Again, I hope I did not offend anyone, just wanted to share thoughts.


Saturday, January 3, 2015


I feel like it has been forever since I wrote something, but the thing is... I never forgot about writing, I just wrote a lot and never published anything, mostly because almost everything was too negative and too personal, and because  I took a year gap to change, which was very painful.

So, I'm changing my voice in writing, I want to try new things, I want to be less limited!

Here's to a new year, new possibilities and no limits.


Thursday, November 7, 2013

Des Nuits Paisibles

A pace of solitude is nothing but a mile of sadness...
Joy became a rare state of mind...
Where nothing happens and no one listens...
To your shouts, your inner shouts that wear off your face like cancer...
Your tears are your only visitors during your sleep...
Your bed only fits one person...
For either you or whoever comes and replaces you...
Your dreams are no more, your hopes have no sole...
What have become of you?
A once happy cloud, now a far dimmed star...
No one can save you from yourself no more...
Say the word and set me free...
'Peace' has a new definition to you,
Time is not on your side anymore...
Let live and let be...
What have become of you...


Saturday, August 3, 2013

Feature: Talal RVQ

Introducing one of my favorite local DJ's in Kuwait, Talal AlQaoud.

You might recognize his music from The Secret Garden event that was held in Salad Boutique this summer by the fabulous Fashionet.

His mixes are insane and addictive, I can't get over them!

Gonna leave you now with some of his tracks below:


Check out his other tracks and follow him at his MixCloud profile!


Thursday, June 6, 2013


We are a song, an unwritten song...
One that ends before it begins...

One that has no meaning but full of meaningful words...

One that everybody listens to, relates to, forgets...

A cassette tape song that gets too old to remember it existed...

I am a song, an unpopular song...
One that exists in many movies but fades so far in the background, no one notices...

You are just words, full of empty letters designed together to create something beautiful...

Our life's a movie that we've seen a 100 times, we know the ending to...

We keep watching that same movie hoping the ending would be as perfect as we want, it never does...

It never ends, the song starts again in the background...

-pull the plug- turn off the tv and face this unjust unfair ending we call "life".


Sunday, May 19, 2013

Birwaz 2.0

We're a month away from starting the workshop for the second time. Hopefully this time we will have more time and explore more in art and photography.

Anyone who wants to participate can contact me via e-mail at

Note: even the people who said that they want in, please send an email to confirm.

Don't hesitate to ask any questions! I know I will need as much help as I can get, so it would be great if you do not want to participate with a camera you can be doing something else!

Looking forward to see what everyone has to offer & show!


Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Self War

I am at war with myself
I start the fight but never finish it
Decisions are made with feelings
Mostly instinct and anger

Once a fight is lost a bigger fight starts again
If victory is made, satisfaction lacks
So, a bigger war begins

The inability to accept loss is a form of insanity
But who am I if I am not insane?
Who are you to tell me who I should be?
I have been fighting alone
While you never bare to stand on your own feet

I fight for chances, opportunities, I lack motivation
I aim for success, but I only find it in my flaws
Dignity, pride, and self-love… I've lost those battles long ago

I would reach out for help if I knew where to find it
If I at least knew earlier… just a bit earlier
that I am at war with myself


Sunday, March 17, 2013


Many people through the years have Interpreted dreams in their own ways… I did too.

Some people say that dreams are images our brains create. Some people say that we, sometimes, travel out of our bodies and visit places that we have visited before.

What about when we see places and meet people that we've never seen before?
What about the things we see in our dreams before they happen in real life?
What about those dreams where we can actually feel pain/water/wind and we can't wake up from?

I believe in the out-of-body experience to some extent. Dreams can be visions, they can mean something else most of the time, or they can just be memories…

my favorite memory-dreams are the ones that get mixed up, it's like my brain tries to fix the memory and make it a better one...

In my own theory, I believe that there's a parallel universe, where our minds can be connected, can see what our "other-selves" see and feel…

I think we go to a place where we can see what would our lives be if we had taken different decisions.

Haven't you had one of those dreams where you can't control what you're doing, as if you're just watching a movie?

I believe that when we dream we can go places and travel wherever we want if we learn to control it

We get to do something that we've always wanted to do… meet a celebrity, kiss a crush… sometimes even commit suicide…

Believe in dreams, remember the good ones… and learn how to really daydream; it helps you dream about good things and maybe sometimes control what you want to dream about!

I feel like -as usual- this did not make any sense… but it's something to think about, right?


Sunday, February 10, 2013

My Delight

I ask for you every night...
I rush to you in every blink of a light...

The white of your eyes is my daylight...
The red of your lips is my heart sight...

We wait for our hands to reunite...
I remember our hearts weakened at first sight...


Wednesday, January 23, 2013

We're Beautiful

We were born beautiful, grew up with the ugliest phases and faces, so by the time we got to the real beauty part we got scarred, we forget that beauty we once had, now the hideousness is imprinted in our heads.

After, our faces are the most beautiful, but they're nothing but masks to keep the real monsters hidden inside. To keep the evil away during the day.

We are humans, we are monsters, we are animals, we are spirits, we are anything the world makes us and what we think we choose to be.

The evil in you will never let you know that you did something until it's too late... Until you are done feeling good about what you did...


My Time, Your Time

People have priorities in everything, even in choosing who to spend time with. It almost becomes a People's Choice Award, and the more you ask for it there's a less of a chance that you won't get to see this person you want to see.

Some days you will find yourself at war with who you want to hang out with and who you want to spend more time with... until you realize that you've made everyone happy by doing but yourself because you didn't get to spend that time with somebody that actually matters more to you... you did not get to spend that hour alone with that person that you know that you'll miss the most...

I find it hard to get the hang of it sometimes, but I only realize how bad it feels when it happens to me too.

I apologize if I seemed that I didn't give you the priority you deserve. My mind tends to choose by itself most of the time, and my heart tends to choose those whom I love the most


Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Chimeras: Two People in One Body

In some cultures it is believed that a person has two angels recording/writing the good deeds and the bad deeds over the shoulders. In some other cultures, people believe that on the right shoulder there's an angel that tells us to do good deeds and on the left the devil tells us to do bad deeds…

I have this weird theory that those two are inside you; you're part angel and part evil. Each person is different from the other, some do more good deeds and some other do bad deeds, and some balance them...

I think in my case I've always believed that my mind is divided into two personalities, they're different but yet they complete each other. One of them is the creative, crazy, wild one, and the other one is the realist, the well-behaved, shy and responsible.

It gets weird when the balance between those breaks, and every time that happens it gets harder to gain that balance back…

This might sound like a weird thing, but you know how I always think of things differently…

Do you think it makes sense?


Tuesday, January 1, 2013


We all grow older, but some of us grow darker.
This year was long, made me feel older, made me feel more mature; my kind "having fun" is changing fast, but yet again I still have my dark thought all the time, which shows that I'm not changing a lot… which I like a little.

This year -2012- was all about living as if we were going to die the next day, which changed my way of thinking and looking at the world around me.

My new year's resolution is "go big or go home!"

don't sit around doing nothing while you could be out there somewhere finding opportunities and chances…
And stop thinking about the number 13 in this year, some people are already pissing me off about the bad luck of it, you'll only bring bad luck when you think of it.

Happy new year everyone, let 2013 be full of joy and dreams… big dreams!


Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Happy 4th Year Of Writing

Three years ago I started this blog out of boredom, I had a lot of free time when I first started studying in the US. I never thought I'd go on with writing, or even make it through more than 6 months.

Here I am today looking at my baby, my blog, with a weird smile... I keep thinking of how many drafts I wrote and deleted after a while, I keep thinking about the things I wrote and edited for 10 times just so they can be perfect...

This year was not about just moving forward, it was about doing things right. I hated that some people thought that I was just being lazy, I was trying to make 'perfect' happen, and I focused on actual work that I would be writing about later on, but the bad thing is that I feel like I lost the simplicity of things; I forgot that that was all that mattered.

This year had it ups and downs, but it's definitely one of my favorite years, I traveled around, worked with people, saw artists that I love, and started to get back on my feet with my photography vision...

I usually thank people who helped me with everything, but I'm blessed to say that if I have to count them I'd have to make a whole post of thank-yous. You know who you are, Thank you!

This upcoming year is going to be my forth, I am hoping for big changes to the way I think... and hoping for more of a development than just change...

I'll stop putting things off until later, I just woke up from a nap to write this, my advice to you is to do the same, never postpone anything...